now in high school

I’M IN HIGHSCHOOL!!! MY LIFE BEGINS!!! ALMOST AN ADULT!!!

Ok, it wasn’t that great. I mean I love change, meeting new people and doing new things. I was not prepared for the move from 8^th grade (early dismissal to help the little kids, bigger cafeteria lunches and being the Top Dog) to digressing down to a lowly Freshman.

You work all those years to be the person younger grade students look up to, and become the person the older grade students treat like a dog.  I get the freshman initiation thing. It is a rite of passage. BUT you are never really prepared for the drop in self-image from 8^th grade to Freshman.

Maybe this is why your freshman friends are so valuable to you. I remember names and things we did as teams. I remember many people who do not remember me. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not a forever friend. I am someone who moves on and treasures memories.

I have very special friends, like Mary Jo that you may have read of earlier. She went through grade and high schools with me. I have “hey didn’t we go to school together” friends. I have “aren’t you Mary’s sister…or Duke’s wife… or someone’s something” acquaintances and  “don’t I know you?” casual contacts.

All of those are because I never closed myself off from meeting, enjoying and being with other people. Being a freshman did not do much for my over inflated ego, but it was a point of change for that part of me that had become complacent and wanted to settle back and rule the world.

I found a new way to be me when I remembered that ME was not all that important. I found out that there is an US that would get me through the rest of my days. (however, this blog is all about ME so I guess some things don’t really change. But at least I have a level of awareness now.)