I think that there are many ways to live in fear. I personally am only afraid of two things...anything bigger than me (large balloons, tanks) and anything smaller than me (spiders, toddlers.)
As a child, I was raised to fear God. Not the personal, touchable God that I know today, but the huge, vengeful God who sits over all of the heavens with a finger pointing at mankind shooting down lightning bolts and with eternal damnation spewing from His mouth.
When I decided to set religion behind me and proceed in God's path through the bible, I found out that He was not the God of my youth. Not judge, jury and executioner, He was a God of love and compassion. Rather than being so monstrous and threatening to get us to accomodate him, He was the size of a man and reassuring to all who strived in His service.
Today I am afraid that I will let Him down. I am afraid that I will not be the servant He designed me to be. My fears aren't of meeting God but not meeting Him.
I can live with that.
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