first poem but not for choir

Back when I first joined the Eastbrook Worship Choir I wrote my first devotion. I am going to start with the "prelude poem" and then do another blog where I recall what I actually read that day.

Lord, I let you down this summer. No one came to you through me.
I saw all the things you gave me, but did I help others see?

Did I have the chance to praise you to someone I just met,
and leave the words unspoken? Lord, have I said them yet?

Did my actions show your kindness? Did my words reflect your own?
Or did I hold your precious gifts as mine and mine alone?

Did I turn my back to someone's face, or carry a load for a friend?
Did I touch a heart with my actions or leave all these things as loose ends?

Was I patient when I felt annoyed? Was it like or dislike I promoted?
Did my words express my holiness or was sadness and hatred emoted?

Lord, it isn't just this summer, but every day I live.
Am I selfish, rude and full of spite while others pray and give?

But every day I wake up, you give me one more chance
to change my way to Yours and others' lives enhance.

I don't deserve Your presence, but you give it just the same.
I know Forgiving Father isn't just a clever name.

You healed my body and my soul while I was filled with worry.
You gave me calm and eased my heart and stopped my frantic hurry.

You sent me other people to show me how you bless,
and they assure me I am safe even when I feel a mess.

I'm not so bad; there's time to spare.  You've sent me all the tools
I need to be Your child and get back to "Christ-like" school.

Lord, I let You down this summer, but unlike those before,
I know I can rebuild myself to praise you evermore.