What to do?

I feel like I am starting to reach my "golden" years, but I am feeling so middle aged right now. I am too old to expect to find a job that uses my skills because jobs I can do are being doled out to the young, energetic people. I am also too young to do what I have been doing for too much longer. Maybe I should have moved to a different job back before I turned fifty. Maybe I should have gone back to school when I was young and be a nurse...or a teacher...or an astronaut.

AM I NUTS?! Why do I second guess my abilities and choices? I should just be happy to be in a rewarding job that challenges me every day. I should see the opportunites to accomplish things as a road to feeling self satisfied. I should start seeing that no one, and I mean no one, could do what I do on a daily basis as well as I do it.

So maybe this year will open a door for a new opportunity - or maybe I will just take the joy of life and apply it to my old job. Perhaps I need to see that my coworkers, however immature they are, are just like me - trying to make it in a job where reward is not balanced by amount of work; appreciation is not doled out like soup at a mission; peace of mind is not a daily occurence.

Maybe I can even use my faith to strengthen myself as I work and positively influence the rest. Who knows? I may be able to show someone else how to make things better too. If I start it, maybe a few guys will pick up the ball and run with it.

Maybe instead of asking what to do I should just do it...imagine the world if every time someone wanted to better the world, they followed up on it and just made it better.

I think I can do that.